I want to write a post this early in the year to set a foundation and see if I follow through over the next few months. I’m not really one of those people to say that year sucked, this year will be better. Every day is a new opportunity to make a change. But with everything that happened in 2012, I know where I want to make those changes more clearly now that I’m able to reflect on an entire 365 days.
I enter this year another year older. I am more secure on my path to the rest of my life. I have a steady job that I love, I’m content with where I live, everything seems pretty peachy. But with every year I get older, I also realize what qualities about myself I want to keep and strengthen and which ones need to be ditched. For instance, why do I buy so much shit? Why do I have this compelling nature to buy clothes and keep up with some sort of status? I need to stop doing this. I love clothes, but at the end of the day, they don’t really make me that happy. If anything, they continue to make me feel inadequate as I strive for something that will never be complete. You see, I’m the type of person that complains I just have no good jeans, until I buy a new pair, fold them nicely, and add them to the staggering pile of good jeans I actually DO own. This has to stop. I throw away so much money on items I only wear once, or sometimes, never. I think I place a lot of my identity into the clothes I wear. When really, it’s unnecessary. So for 2013, I vow to chill out on clothing purchases. Not to say I will give it up completely, but definitely cut down dramatically. I know that in the end this will make me happy. Materialism is the #1 downfall of western society and it engulfs us all. I refuse to be a part of this anymore. I have to find the confidence in myself, who I am, what I stand for, my personality, more than I need 10 new shirts.
Bullying came to the fore front in 2012. This got me to thinking about why I started this blog in the first place. So many people were so annoyed by what I was posting on facebook that I turned to blogging to vent. In a sense, I was bullied into it. People didn’t want to hear my opinions (that I know can be stifling at times). I know I’m in your face about my opinions, but I can honestly say that absolutely none of them hurt anyone. They are not racist, discriminative, or sexist. If anything, I’m standing up against all of those things. This is a characteristic that some people hate in me. But really, someone standing around not saying anything is just as bad as the person saying the shit in the first place. I refuse to be a by-stander to bullshit. So for 2013, I’m going to continue to voice my opinions with the one I’m given. The social media world can be a really dangerous place. There are no laws, there are no overseeing bodies. Not that there should be. But that really leaves it a free for all for some pretty negative opinions. That’s why I will continue to write what’s on my mind. You never know when that one person looking to restore their faith in humanity may come across a like-minded thinker in a blog. Recently, I received a message on facebook from a woman thanking me for my blog. She said that she really admired my passion for helping newcomers and it was people like me that made it easier for refugees to feel welcomed in a new country. It was one of the most inspiring messages I have ever had. She really reassured me that I am doing a good thing here and that I should continue.
So that’s it. That’s what I vow to do this year. Of course eating healthier, staying in shape, those regular things I absolutely hate are in there too. But I’m not vowing anything, because let’s be honest, I love poutine, and hot dogs, and bread, and pasta! I want to live a long healthy life, full of good food! So I’ll just promise myself to do what I can, when I can, and be happy with the body I have.